Objectivity

It is something I lack... the thing that makes someone rational, gives someone clarity, and the ability to recognize when they are biased and narrow minded. That is objectivity as its definition proceeds, "judgment based on observable phenomenon and uninfluenced by emotions or personal prejudices" . Ever since I was little I have always been an emotional person and sometimes that feeling has always got the best at me.

I'm always looking for acceptance from others and that has often created the need of narcissism because I'm worried about myself being judged. However, whenever I look at the bigger picture I often realize how silly it is. But, no matter how hard I try it's become a major part of my life to think too much about myself (something that I'm steadily working on).

I just wish the world were free of societal pressures that force people into roles that they do not want to play. However, it's always there in our lives and I guess the best way to deal with it is to accept it for what it is. Not care about what others think and live your life for what it was meant to be. To be yourself.

These kinds of feelings will often eat at your soul and just harbouring them without a word let out will not make it anybetter. They will at least most certainly cause people to spawn jealousy, greed, and bitterness. I constantly have to remind myself of these things and this is not the type of person I want to be. If I want to be free of prejudices I simply have to not care of what others think of me even if they do not like my personality they will have to get use to it. I simply want to try my best and fulfill my dream... Pi...

I'm kidding, at least on the last sentence I was. How could anybody follow Pi? Unless it were in a circle. But, I guess... life is in a circle and that's what this blog is all about. In fact, it's a growing circle and as you run around it and make a lap it gets bigger and you have to run much faster to make the same lap and that is why things seem to move so much faster as you grow old. The art of math... engineering... science... are all connected in this world and that is what I want to set out to explore. For the world has so many interesting connections that one would not think of. The traditional view of these fields of studies deserve a change.